Frustrated.

So very frustrated.

So much going on!!!

I'm met with my lawyer yesterday to go over the offering plan, contract and drop off a check for the down payment.  We talked about some of the details and I was sent home with the contract and all to read over myself.  We're going to talk about it today and go over any of my other questions.

I also have to talk to my mortgage guy today to go over some stuff.

It seems like every time I get off the phone with one person, all I have are more questions for someone else!  I really need one day off from all this!  I wish I could just say, "Guys, if anything happens on Sunday, I don't want to hear about it until Monday!  Period!"

I had a wedding to go to this past weekend. It was fun as far as weddings go (I'm not good at small talk or dancing, so weddings for the most part, make me feel awkward) and most of the guys there were really tall. Unfortunately, they all seemed to be married or with a date. :( Sometimes, I swear to god I'm the only single person left on the planet.

I really wanted a picture showing off the dress but everyone kept taking pics from the waist up.  Maybe the rest of the dress looked trashy??

The running has really taken off in the past week or two. I feel like I'm making progress and I can see some changes in my legs. My arms are coming along, too! I just increased to 5lb dumbbells.

One weird side effect though is what running has done to my appetite. I need to eat like every two hours and I know part of it is for building muscle but part of it is building pudge, too. I'm going to keep at it though cause it feels good to feel healthy. I feel capable and able in a way I never really have before. Like I can run and I can weight train and I can run up the stairs and all these other things that used to leave me gasping for breath! I can do them now and if feels good!

I've been baking a lot lately. This weekend I made black and white cookies for my mom. She had to put her dog down this past week and she really needed a pick-me-up. (Well, to tell you the truth, we all needed a pick-me-up and it helps to have busy hands.)

I should have taken a pic before they were mostly eaten!

I try to keep this blog light and airy but I just want to say a few words about Casey the Beagle. She was the kind of dog that could make you tear your hair out one minute but look so cute you have to forgive her the next. She was bit aloof but she loved her people and would always thump down the stairs to greet you if you hadn't been around in a while. She unapologetically had her own agenda (usually revolving around food) but she was still a sweetheart underneath it all. She was loved and will be missed by all of her pack.



~~~~~{@ <3<3<3 Caser <3<3<3@}~~~~

Well, that was a learning experience, I guess.

It looks like the deal isn't going to come together.  I just need a "Yes" or a "No" from one person so I know how to proceed but they have been MIA.  I was supposed to hear by noon.  The sellers won't be dealing again until Sunday because of Rosh Hashana.  My realtor thinks the offer won't stand that long.  I don't know what to think.

I started looking for other properties.  Nothing seems to be in my price range and in an okay area except for the little 1BR but I don't think that meets the right requirements for the type of loan I'll be getting.  This sucks.

Overwhelmed by Being a Grown Up

Like the title says.  That's how I'm feeling. 

I'm also feeling completely superstitious about the things going on with my life right now and I'm seriously trying to avoid jinxing myself.  It's to the point where I'm practically throwing salt over my shoulder every time I walk in a room and I'm teetering on the edge of carrying a horseshoe in my purse!

I'm going to try to ignore the situation.

I've been running all weekend.  The last two runs, I've upped to 3 minutes of running with 1 minute of walking and I've been doing 5 sets.  I'm hoping to make it to six my the end of the week.

Woops!  It's a little fuzzy!

I bought a pretty cool hat yesterday while I was out with A.  It's very 1920's and I think it looks good with my new hair cut.  I'm actually looking forward to cold weather so I can wear it.

Sorry I have nothing more important to talk about right now.  I'll fill you guys in on the news as soon as I have any.

Offer's out... again

God, I'm so nervous. I have a bad feeling. They are acting weird.

That's all I can say right now.

No running today. My back is tender for some reason. It hurt to put my feet on the ground this morning. I figure, if I feel better later, I can run then. If not, at least I won't do any more damage.

The YMCA is having a deal from now through the beginning of October where you can join without paying a registration fee, only the monthly fee. I really want to join so I can start swimming but I'm not sure which one to join!

I made a fig tart this past weekend. It came really good. I think I'm going to use the recipe with other fruits as my go-to tart recipe. I've been baking up a storm lately but I'm going to try not to this weekend. I need to be good and get my post nicotine eating under control. Plus, my mom is making the best cookies ever this weekend. They are a recipe she perfected years ago. My sister's and I grew up on these cookies. Now, she only makes then every few years. Maybe I'll try to get the recipe...

Fig tart. 

Nerves!

Things are going well. 

That's all I can say about that.  I don't want to jinx myself.  Things probably won't work out anyway so I shouldn't get so excited.

Cross your fingers!  Wish me luck! 

Possibility

Possibly? Maybe? I'm afraid to say...

...things might be working out!

In other news: yoga may be put off until next month due to scheduling.   Ran today.   Six reps!  It ad my back a little tender but I'm working through it.  Quitting smoking is making me eat everything I see.   I forgot to put on a patch yesterday and I polished off a fuckton of cookies.  I'm not going to put one one today because I already started the withdrawal process yesterday.  I'm going to try brushing my teeth immediately after dinner for the next few days to curb the munchies. See if that helps.