Okay, so I'm on my 2nd day of my fifth week of being cigarette free. I'm on the patch which has made it ridiculously easy to quit smoking. I mean almost painless. I don't even want to smoke at all. That said, I'm still a nicotine addict cause I haven't gone through withdrawal, yet. It makes me realize what my addiction really is.
In the past, after going through withdrawal, I'd still kind of want a cigarette. I'd still be pulled towards them. I'd still feel something about them even months later. I thought that this was just habit because I had already detoxed. Now I realize that it wasn't. My body will always crave nicotine. Right now, I have no urge to smoke. None. And it's weird. I smell smokers and it just smells like smoke. Not good or bad. Not tempting or repulsive. I just smell it. I wonder if this is what it's like for you guys?
Well, trying to kill this 15lbs I gained hasn't gone as well. In fact it hasn't gone at all. I eat right and don't lose an ounce. I've been so hard on myself. I'm pretty sure I've been harder than I usually am when I'm losing weight, but nada. I'm going to walk home from the junction tonight cause I know that I need to be more active and then it will come right off, right? Plus I'm PMSing and ate 2 chocolate bars today! But they both deserved it! So anyway I have to work it off just to break even....
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"I smell smokers and it just smells like smoke. Not good or bad. Not tempting or repulsive. I just smell it. I wonder if this is what it's like for you guys?"
No. It smells repulsive.
Keep it up!!!
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